Friday, September 01, 2006

Long Time No Blog

It's been a long time time since I last wrote in my blog and, of course, so much has happened coz it has been 3 months (I think) since I last wrote here.. hehe! So, what's happening now? Been busy with so much school work lately. This week is a hell week for me. CS112 midterms and Ma22 long test #3 all in one day! And to add to that, my CS112 midterms started at 3:30 pm and ended at 4:30 pm. Then my ma22 long test started at 4:30 and ended at 6:00. Very tiring day for me. When I got home, I wanted to relax so I played dota with my friends online. But, that isn't the end of it all. Weds was my ma22 midterms. Boy! It was very, very, very hard!!! I really am amazed how math teachers think! They think of questions that are so complex that they want to make the lives of their students so miserable! It doesn't end there. Tomorrow, on the other hand, is my defense for my patches project in CS112. I have to review my code coz I forget it all already since a month has already passed! Haha! Good thing that my program works for both linux and windows. (Actually, I didn't check if it would work in Linux. hehe!) By the way, thanks guys (Pao, Neill, and JV) for helping me and teaching me C programming. Owe you guys one! :) Now, that's my academic life. Sounds boring. All study.. So boring.. Well, the other part of the life is also very boring. hehe!

Love life is a big fat zero. One thing to sum it all up with what happened between me and her is that "GIRLS = MAGULO". Ever thought that there was this person that you met and you developed a great relationship (but she didn't become my GF. Something close to that, but she was never my girlfriend) and in the end, because of some reason that I find very shallow, she ends everything. Our relationship was already very complicated from the start (much problems and stuff), but I always thought that we would surpass them all. But I was wrong. To be honest, I really thought it was her already; but, I was wrong. There was a time during my freshman year in college that my friend tried that tarot card on me. I can still remember her visions of my future. It was so scary because she barely knew me because it was just 3 months since we started studying in Ateneo. What she said about my past was correct! I was stunned. Then she told me my "future". She told me that in the future, I would meet a certain girl. But don't be serious with that girl because she will just break your heart. You don't have much success with girls, but in the end, you'll eventually find the right woman. I don't know why, but what my friend told me about my future, I never forgot it. I don't know why. I thought the girl that would break my heart was the girl before "her", but I was wrong. I think the girl that will break my heart, was really her. Sad. Well, it's time to move on. Past is past, let's not dwell on the past, as my ym status said the other night ago. It's so sad that all the hopes, dreams, everything faded away at once. There are times, I admit, that I regret everything that has happened between us. Sometimes I wish that we didn't meet at all. Well, life goes on. There are lots of others out there. She isn't the only girl in the world.. Hehe!
Enough of that. No more crying over spilled milk. That's all for today :) hehe!

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

do not let a bad ending ruin a whole story filled with mostly beauty and hapiness.
there were a lot of hardships, but am sure there was more good and hapiness... you just need to try and open your mind, and choose to see things that way

Eli Lao said...

yah.. ur right.. but you still can't hide the fact that you're bitter about it. right? btw, hus ds? :) it would be nice if you put ur names so that i know..

.kiM. said...

Forget regret... or life is yours to miss. - from Rent.

That's my message for you. Alam ko na hindi tayo close or anything pero... I think it applies to everyone. Heart break is a gift so you can appreciate your relationships in the future. How can you appreciate beauty if you don't know what its counterpart is, dba? Ü

- Kim Palpallatoc.

Anonymous said...

hehe eli.

i understand how bad it can hurt. but well, it already happened and there's not much you can do to restore it to what it was before. pero dapat no regrets. it's better that something happened on that part of your life than it being just a blank space. just get sad/mad, then get over it. i'm sure you've learned many lessons from this chapter of your life and you'll be stronger and hopefully, more successful the next time around. :)

okay tama na ang kadramahan... balik sa katopakan!

pakibago ang link pala sa blog ko. it's http://borgybokyo.blogspot.com

-Borgy

Eli Lao said...

thanks guys! :)

Anonymous said...

Sorry, I don't have an identity yet..just came accross your page.

I'm also an Atenean but several batches higher than you..and work at Citibank in Libis.

Just want to ask..what the her "shallow" reason?

Might help us understand girls...